Because of the indoctrination of Facebook I feel more comfortable fitting everything I have to say in a little box, feel less inclined to say a lot, and don't feel so bad about having limited time to say something...or nothing as the case may be. I fear there are few or fewer people reading this blog these days, because I have been remiss about writing. However, Facebook has taught me that it is just fine to write important or trivial things that no one will read. If a tree falls in a forest and no one reads it, you have not been wasting paper anyway so it does not matter and it is not your fault the tree fell so who cares?
I hate to admit this out loud, cause that is usually when a tree falls on you, but I am happy. Really happy. Not circumstantially happy. Just plain old ordinary day happy. I can list the temporal things that seem to have contributed to this happiness - peppy Gershwin tunes on the ipod my son gave me, exercise, happy healthy loved ones and lots of fun with Facebook friends. But I can just as easily list the things that should make me feel not happy - same old stubborn back and body, STILL no closure on buying this house after a year of waiting, and well, everything on the news or Oprah. Although I can usually empathize myself out of any happy state I am in, I think I am becoming better able to offer an umbrella to others while not standing in their rain storm. Or something...I am too happy to dwell on.
Perhaps I am recognizing the gift of happiness and the fleeting nature of appreciation. Happy is probably not as deep or sophisticated or profound to write about. In fact, there is probably not as much being written about happiness because when you are happy you don't feel like sitting alone with your thoughts and your words. Life is fun when you are happy and even though I love to write, I really love to life. So I guess I will go back to having a life and check back the next time I feel I have something to say (Happy people give themselves those kind of loose deadlines, I find). Since I don't have anything more to say about anything, I guess happiness is just going to have to be enough.
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