I can't help myself lately, I am just happy. I want to be worried about the election. I am not. I want to worry about our economy but I know having been very poor for a lot of years, that is not the biggest threat to my security. I have had a cold for the past 4 weeks off and on in various shapes and symptoms, but it is nice to be well enough to notice the inconvenience of being a little under the weather instead of living in the eye of the storm on a daily basis. I have heard the Christians predicting the end of the world is very close. Even that does not phase me lately. Whether it is the end of the age or the age of Aquarius makes no difference in the way I am living my life these days.
My kids are making me proud and keeping me entertained, I am getting paid and invited to entertain people, my body moves enough to keep my endorphins flowing in the right direction, my husband has a job that he spends too much time on; but our marriage is in a place where I am sad about the time he is gone but since our finances are not gone, I am learning to be happy about his devotion to the job.
I know the winds of change are threatening to knock us off our feet. I don't want to be insensitive for whistling a happy tune when I am supposed to be singing a requiem. I do know how scary it is to be poor. I do know how difficult it is to lose the security of a house (in my case I never really had it) and to face an uncertain financial future. I think that precisely because I have experienced those trials I am able to stand firmly in this place of gratitude. It is easy for me to say now, and I don't want to go back to those days of fear and insecurity financially, or physically, or maritally, or parentally, or anydarkotherally; but I am even thankful for those very tumultous times because they make this air of calm sweeter. My faith is stronger and my priorities are clearer. If after the storm you have a God you trust more, a husband you appreciate more, a family you cherish and friends who stuck by you in the tempest, it should renew your sense of optimism even as the winds of the next storm threaten to blow. Come what may, it is comforting to know that this wind too shall pass.